Light shall not be overcome by darkness.
Spent a lovely weekend on the sofa but I still miss all the noise and drama when they’re gone. They’ve had a good weekend at their dad’s apparently… making and decorating cakes. They’ve even sent me the pictures to prove it. But if he thinks I’m getting back with him over a few baking pictures he can think again. He was suppose to propose to his girlfriend the week before Christmas and then on New Year’s Eve but every time he keeps chickening out. If I so much as mentions other man or online profile he gets upset and cross! You just couldn’t make it up! That man has put me off men for life so why would I even want to go there again?! I’m just starting to get over the trauma of everything he put me through for the past twelve years. Those kids were the only best thing to come out of our marriage and if I have to sacrifice ever having another relationship while they are young and vulnerable and growing up, I will.
The lady from Cat’s Protection is going to get back to me this coming week concerning a rescue kitten and I’m going to try and get out abit more socially. I’d love to join a book group or go to a few more poetry, jazz or salsa classes. Couple of the year two mums said that they’ll come with me as well. Don’t get me wrong. I really miss the scent of a man and being hugged and kissed and looking after each other. I sat alone today for all of my meals and it was very lonely in places. But I can’t forge interest where there is none. I can’t force myself to chat to someone when I’m still trying to fall out of love with someone else! Things take time. Life takes time. Online dating is not the answer. Getting out and talking to real life people is more like it. And I plan to keep a smile on my face and a spark as well when I do so:-).
Thanks for being here for me. I’ll just have to find some other way of dealing with my loneliness. It’s not just the elderly that suffer through it alone. We’ll get there. One day at a time. Goodnight and God bless from England. Love C. Please take care of yourself too.
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via You are not IN the universe, you ARE the universe, an intrinsic part of it. Ultimately you are not a person, but a focal point where the universe is becoming conscious of itself. What an amazing Miracle. Eckhart Tolle — Totally Inspired Mind
of spring coming already. Aàaaa:-) The promise of new leaves and baby lambs and tiny birds hiding in big trees:-) Bring it on already! I took the kids bowling yesterday and they thoroughly enjoyed it. The banana bread I made the day before is gone and so is the second batch I made yesterday! Will have to pop to the shops today to get some more self raising flour and basic vanilla essence. A few activity centres should be opened too so they can burn off some energy in there for a few hours this morning. Then it’s time for surgery this afternoon! First it was teddy. Then it was Luigi and now there’s a sorry looking lamb on a pillow in the TV room besides me with my daughter’s doctor bag. And her big wide grin!See what I’ve started?!! Let’s just hope the word doesn’t spread or I’m going to have a room full of soft play toys before my coffee granules can melt properly into its juices! Heaven help me.
Hope the new year is being kind to you too :-).
I plan to stay in my pajamas and dressing gown all day. Shhh..I might not even brush my teeth!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂
was kind to you. Nativity plays, secret Santas, Christmas work lunch do and dinner, helping to wrap presents for Lapland so that every inpatient on Christmas day got a gift, visiting friends, gift buying, gift wrapping, remembering love ones…..Yes it’s been quite busy my way lately so I apologise for not writing sooner. My dad died three days before Christmas and my marriage ended around Christmas time so I can be and have been very low recently. I light a candle in the window every morning and evening to remind myself that light shall not be overcome by darkness and that even in the pitchest darkness of our lives there is always light. I light a candle to remember the dead and to remind myself that while i was still alive I had a duty to live my life fully and beautifully for those left behind. I light a candle for hope.
Hope you had a good holiday too.
Rain lashes down outside against my bedroom window as I snuggle up inside with a good book:-). (and hot chocolate). A peaceful end to a beautiful day:-)