Spent a lovely weekend on the sofa but I still miss all the noise and drama when they’re gone. They’ve had a good weekend at their dad’s apparently… making and decorating cakes. They’ve even sent me the pictures to prove it. But if he thinks I’m getting back with him over a few baking pictures he can think again. He was suppose to propose to his girlfriend the week before Christmas and then on New Year’s Eve but every time he keeps chickening out. If I so much as mentions other man or online profile he gets upset and cross! You just couldn’t make it up! That man has put me off men for life so why would I even want to go there again?! I’m just starting to get over the trauma of everything he put me through for the past twelve years. Those kids were the only best thing to come out of our marriage and if I have to sacrifice ever having another relationship while they are young and vulnerable and growing up, I will.
The lady from Cat’s Protection is going to get back to me this coming week concerning a rescue kitten and I’m going to try and get out abit more socially. I’d love to join a book group or go to a few more poetry, jazz or salsa classes. Couple of the year two mums said that they’ll come with me as well. Don’t get me wrong. I really miss the scent of a man and being hugged and kissed and looking after each other. I sat alone today for all of my meals and it was very lonely in places. But I can’t forge interest where there is none. I can’t force myself to chat to someone when I’m still trying to fall out of love with someone else! Things take time. Life takes time. Online dating is not the answer. Getting out and talking to real life people is more like it. And I plan to keep a smile on my face and a spark as well when I do so:-).
Thanks for being here for me. I’ll just have to find some other way of dealing with my loneliness. It’s not just the elderly that suffer through it alone. We’ll get there. One day at a time. Goodnight and God bless from England. Love C. Please take care of yourself too.
eyefull for sure! The strip tease show! It was fully packed of course with screaming women including the seven of us from our year two class! No penises were exposed thank heavens and no one pressured me into having a drink before hand either.:-).So all in all a good night. The girls are all going dancing afterwards but I’ve come back home to my Grey’s Anatomy and hot chocolate before bed:-) Aaa:-). The show? It was okay. Flesh were exposed. Men griped and grind but it didn’t turn me on in the slightest. Maybe there is something wrong with me or the age of the men in the show. All I could think of was the way my Muse looked that day half naked in his trunks painting a farm machinery in his dad’s front garden. Now that. That just makes me want to rip the rest of his clothes off and turn up at his house at 3am with nothing but a dressing gown to show him just what kind of wild animal I could really be. Only he turns me on. Dear lord I hope he just gives in one day to this wild chemistry between us and invite me over for steak and chips and a look around his green house:-) I’d really love to see his greenhouse:-):-):-)
My co worker invited me over for lunch today and another one dropped by in the afternoon:-). First time ever. But second anniversary of mum’s death and you know what? I spend the day happy and I think she would have approved. I love you mum. And miss you dearly. Each and every day. Now excuse me while I go back to my hot chocolate and Grey’s Anatomy. I don’t want to miss a thing. And would you believe it’s still a big beautiful moon outside? :-)God bless you all from England:-).
of spring coming already. Aàaaa:-) The promise of new leaves and baby lambs and tiny birds hiding in big trees:-) Bring it on already! I took the kids bowling yesterday and they thoroughly enjoyed it. The banana bread I made the day before is gone and so is the second batch I made yesterday! Will have to pop to the shops today to get some more self raising flour and basic vanilla essence. A few activity centres should be opened too so they can burn off some energy in there for a few hours this morning. Then it’s time for surgery this afternoon! First it was teddy. Then it was Luigi and now there’s a sorry looking lamb on a pillow in the TV room besides me with my daughter’s doctor bag. And her big wide grin!See what I’ve started?!! Let’s just hope the word doesn’t spread or I’m going to have a room full of soft play toys before my coffee granules can melt properly into its juices! Heaven help me.
Hope the new year is being kind to you too :-).
with a stuffing transplant on my daughter’s favourite teddy this morning. Poor thing! He’d had the cotton played out of him quite literally. So I told her I’d fix it up for him. She scrubbed in to assist ( too much Grey’s Anatomy episodes :-):-)) while I meticulously repaired the damage and told her to keep him on bedrest for the rest of the day. Which she did. Quite beautifully:-) checking his temperature with her doctors kit and making him watching a cartoon to relax this afternoon:-):-)
I was planning to watch Gone with the Wind finally after they’d gone to bed tonight but my son was so impressed with my work he’s left two of his favourite stuffed toys for me to fix by morning! And no cutting any corners he said very seriously. I want them good as new when I open my eyes in the morning! Heaven help me. Guess I will be staying up until midnight after all. Have you ever seen a alittle kid’s disappointed face before? Well I haven’t. And I don’t intend to start the new year with one! :-):-) kids for you eh
Happy new Year’s Eve everyone:-).
Ps. Thanks for being there for me this year. It was appreciated far more than you’ll ever know. Hope you a peaceful and prosperous and bright 2017 too. God bless you.
I plan to stay in my pajamas and dressing gown all day. Shhh..I might not even brush my teeth!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂
the thick covering of frost outside is the superb covering of blankets inside from my vintage point on the sofa. Hello winter:-)
Rain lashes down outside against my bedroom window as I snuggle up inside with a good book:-). (and hot chocolate). A peaceful end to a beautiful day:-)